Day 29 - April 6, 2011 (11 days to go)

Whew! What a day today was! So distracted all day awaiting Nina's arrival. I was just so excited to see her. Today was an easy day at work, when I was focused. I tried to spread out my work to last me the entire day and help keep the urges away. Of course all to no avail. Naturally we have a never ending supply of "things to do" at work so I never have to worry about looking for something to do. Its just all the urges and temptations sitting on my shoulders once again. I may have checked my personal email 20 times today. Not that I was really expecting anything but just to make it feel like I was checking something. So much on my mind that I feel the need to get it all out but I can't...At least not until next week. Then came dinner time with Nina. She was special enough to meet my parents & kids on her first time here. Not everyone gets that luxury. I couldn't even tweet that I was with her. *sigh* That's what I get for cutting myself off from the friends that live in my computer. Soon enough I'll be back and i bet my mind will shut down because there's so much that I'll want to say at one time. It must just be that I like to torture myself. OK, so again I must wonder that I near the bottom of the page why my handwriting changes. Gets sloppier in a sense yet still legible. things that make you go hmmmm... See what happens when you're living under a rock on the Arc kickin it with Noah for the time being? UGH!

Until we meet again...

*I journal nightly before bed and am not responsible for any spelling and grammatical errors*

PS. I had Scott take off the Facebook notification from my phone this morning because it was already driving me insane. Even without looking at it I knew it was there. Power of the mind.

Day 28 - April 5, 2011 (12 days to go)

After a boring uneventful weekend with no social networking comes Monday. I almost felt like I reverted back to week one or two instead of week 4. A day filled with so many urges and temptations. It doesn't help that I've stopped writing down status updates and/or texting them in an effort to stop compensating one with the other. I thought it would help by removing all aspects of social networking and communicating like a real human being. Where do I get all these bright ideas from? What happened to friends stopping you from doing bad things? Friends shouldn't let friends give up social networking. Some of today's temptations came from Jess and I discussing some things from last week, and us not being able to say anything but to each other. Who does that? Who says something big than says we can't say anything? Well at least we have each other for it. Found out a friend is coming to visit and so excited about it. Such a shame I can't Facebook or tweet about it. Can't wait to see her!!! Then after my phone acting up numerous times tonight, on top of the battery draining ridiculously, I get a Facebook notification! Like seriously WTF!? So now I'm stuck with a blinking red light and the Facebook icon on my screen to tempt me even more. Oy Vey! And the blinking red light is going to irk me more than the icon. when I finish and survive this journey I'm not gonna know what to do with myself! Friday I may just turn my phone off because its going to be bittersweet knowing that I'm unable to attend the funeral. While I already had mixed emotions I did still want to go. For now I will take each day as it's own. I got this!

Until we meet again...

*I journal nightly before bed and am not responsible for any spelling and grammatical errors*

No status updates today.

Day 27 - April 4, 2011 (13 days to go)

Another night listening to the howling wind reflecting on today and this journey as a whole. Who's idea was it for me to give up social networking for Lent? And who's idea was it to have "rest days" during Lent? Did Jesus have rest days during his journey? Perhaps I'm confused with the great flood. Maybe for Lent I should've gone to live on a boat to ride out the storm. Today was back to the daily grind. And for the last almost four weeks that has included fighting and resisting temptation. yes folks its back. While I'm not on my phone, the temptation to log in is there. This includes the curiousity of what's going on. Such as why are people still following me on Twitter when I haven't tweeted anything for 4 weeks as of tomorrow?Why do my friends insist on posting things on facebook when they know I'm on this journey and I receive the email notifications which knowingly give me temptation. I could've really used some ranting today too! From resisting another tantrum at work to getting fussed at on the phone. Why are funerals so stressful? Is everyone just ragging at the same time....except for me? *sigh* I can do this! Only 19 more days to go.

Until we meet again...

*I journal nightly before bed and am not responsible for spelling and grammatical errors*

No Status Updates today.

Day 26 - April 3, 2011 (14 days to go)

As I lay here gathering my thoughts I'm listening to the wind howl. As annoying as the wind is, there is something soothing in its howling sound. Today was another uneventful day. Sleeping in, cleaning, coaching staff meeting, etc. I even missed the first half of Army Wives thanks to the slow pokes at the pizza place. So many moments of complaint yet no urges or temptation. I'm really starting to feel like my life has done a one-eighty with this whole no social networking thing. In just a couple days I went from numerous urges and temptations to nothing. How can this journey be such a roller coaster of temptation?

Until we meet again...

*I journal nightly before bed and am not responsible for any spelling and grammatical errors*

No Status Updates today.

*note - as I blog the countdown 2 weeks seems so close but then I remember I still have the 6 "rest days" aka cheat days to add on to it. :-( Way to burst my own bubble.

Day 25 - April 2, 2011 (15 days to go)

A day of nothing exciting creates for an uninteresting journal entry.

So uninteresting that I fell asleep writing so now I'm updating on day 26. My day consisted of me sleeping in, waking up, cleaning, eating, shopping...ok let me stop there. On the way to eat we saw a brush fire on the mountain. Crazy enough I didn't have any temptation to Twitter or Facebook much less take a picture. Then off to Wally World where mom & I proceeded to act like children and basically play hide & seek with my children up and down the aisles. On the way out we saw a couple of police officers walking in. Come to find out some guy was held up at gunpoint in the parking lot. Again, no urge or temptation to update. Later in the night I received another surprise text that made me smile. Thanks Erica! After which of course led to a phone conversation and I heard a very heartbreaking story of another death. So much of it going around with people I know. Sure death happens daily but you don't hear about it so often with people you know. What is really going on?

Until we meet again...

*I journal nightly before bed an am not responsible for spelling and grammatical errors*

No Status Updates today.

Day 24 - April 1, 2011 (16 days to go)

Happy April Fool's Day. This day didn't start off so well. Mostly in part that yet again I woke up late but this time I was late to work. I was able to speak to Jenny today and got a little more insight on the pending funeral services. I am hoping to make it. At work I only heard of 2 pranks, both equally good. The first is one of donuts having the jelly replaced with ketchup. Only a handful were able to be pranks but they were good sports about it. The second was four of our closers at work calling in. Brilliant! Poor Res Manager was stressed but I think pissed when they all showed up to work. Of course these are things I would have been tweeting and updating to share the comedy. Yet I sent no updates today. It was overall a pretty blah day with plenty of work to keep myself busy. Which reminds me that I still need to file my taxes. I didn't even update when I got "got"! Damn Big Moon got me so good today! I would have updated like crazy with this one. He absolutely made my day. He called me from a number I didn't know and was speaking with a creepy voice. I had no clue what the hell was going on and almost hung up on him. In the end I was actually a Power 106 (Abq) winner of front row tickets to a show next month. After the week I've had he really made it better. Thank you! That was the biggest urge today. Even funnier was my friend's boyfriend heard the call on the air and was telling me about this dumb ass chick who's so clueless on the radio. he didn't know what to say when I laughed and told him it was me. After everything that's happened this week and having no social networking (except my important log in that I included in my rosary the other night) I have thought about the dependence on social networking and how communicating the "old fashioned" way is much more personal and enjoyable. The irrelevance of 90% of my updates, entertaining or not. Sure there were other urges and slight temptations today but i didn't' find it as difficult to fight it like before. What an eye opener this week has been in so many ways.

Until we meet again...

*I journal nightly before bed and am not responsible for any spelling and grammatical errors*

Day 23 - March 31, 2011 (17 days to go)

Here I sit at the end of what turned out to be a melancholy yet somber day. After staying up late last night to say a rosary, I didn't get much sleep. When I awoke, the world seemed so mellow. Almost as if life was so dull. Oh, I am so thankful that I have friends that have a vampires sleep schedule. Poor Roo let me unload on him last night. I never though I needed that but I guess when you're being "the strong one" for everyone else you need someone too. (the money's on the dresser) Back to today, I was so blah at work. I only had a few urges, one being because Kari tagged me in a picture on Facebook so I got an email notification. Damn, my friends need to give me a heads up before they do that. I really didn't feel a need for social networking today. I checked up on a couple people and sent a few emails back & forth but I didn't deem it necessary to be very communicative today. I did get a few great laughs from some emails but aside from that I stayed pretty blah. I didn't text or write down any status updates either. Time to get some more rest and prepare to make more contact tomorrow.

Until we meet again...

*I journal nightly before bed and am not responisible for any spelling and grammatical errors*

Oh p.s. Funny moment was my dad's reaction to me giving up social networking. Only he would be shocked yet a smart ass at the same time.